And Im playing my saxophone for the first time in literally months. And I missed her. Why have I waited for so long to play her? There’s so much to juggle. Smh. Thesis just sapped my attendance and dedication to music. I want to be a musician. And I am one. Its like after playing for 13 years I just want to revert. I’ve hit a plateau. I need new challenges. And I can create it for myself but I do much better adapting to an atmosphere. I will be talking to my mentor about this. Today. When your body has been doing something for 13 years and have always been able to pick it up when you want to and put it back down and everyones always on your bumper praising you its not for you anymore. I’ve been doing this since I was 8. I need a new challenge. And it needs to be difficult. So I can adapt to it. And I need to stay there. Until I get what I want back from my music.